Half Empty or Half Full?

Had my CT scan Thursday morning. Got the results Friday afternoon. There was a lot of pacing happening between that period.

Well results are not what we hoped, but they could be worse. Way worse. You go into it hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst. Not to mention our last few CT scans have been pretty devastating, so I may have been “over” prepared for the worst…

Here are the positives. 1) No new lesions. Yes! 2) The largest legion in the liver which measured something like 4.8,4.6,3.9 shrank to 3.9,2.8,1.9. – not exact numbers but Yes!

Here are the negatives. 1) The other 9 lesions showed small growth between 2-7mm. Bummer. 2) Lymphnodes remained relatively unchanged to slightly larger. Bummer.

So some positives and some negatives. But when I go into the scan wondering if it has spread to my lungs, bladder, bones, pancreas etc.., this seems like a win. We saw how quickly and aggressively it moved over 2-1/2 months, so wondering what happened in 4 months was definitely tough. With these results, not much has changed since my scan 4 months ago. So with that in mind, I feel like my time has been extended a little longer.

From the Oncologist side, their definition is that my cancer was resistant to this treatment. Which is the sucky part. You go through all those beatdowns to find out it wasn’t affecting most of the lesions. As it was explained, cancer cells have different clones. So some masses will regress and others won’t be affected. Its amazing after being through 4 rounds of chemo though that it didn’t do anything to those cells…

What happens now? I do have a meeting with a surgeon in Edmonton on Tuesday, but with these results, it is unlikely we would look at any local treatments. The disease has to show regression or stability in most cases. Likely scenario is I will start the second line of defense for systemic (full body) treatment. This will be a combo of two drugs – Irinotecan and Bevacizumab. We’ll start this either the first or second week of February.

So, not a celebration today, but my disease also didn’t really get any worse. I already dealt with finding out I had 10 lesions and lymphnode involvement back in October. Comparatively, today was a walk in the park.

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About Dan

I am an average guy battling a not so average disease called Stage 4 Colon Cancer. I was born in 1974 in Richmond, BC and moved to Calgary, AB in 1986 - where I still reside. I started this blog in November of 2013. So I have some catching up to do. I write this for my many wonderful family members and friends who have supported me throughout my life. But, appreciation beyond words goes to my wife, my mom, my dad and my sister. You are my sole. Most importantly this is for my daughter. My little rumplebum. To share in parts of my life's journey once you are old enough and to remember our time together. I love all of you, Dan

7 thoughts on “Half Empty or Half Full?

  1. Well, a bit of good news is much better than all bad. Keep up with the positive thoughts. That’s the only way to go. With all your friends and relatives behind you it is bound to help. That beautiful little Audrey is well worth all you have to go through. Hang in there because you are worth it. Sending our best wishes to you, Renee and Audrey.

  2. How True. I’m amazed at you Dan. Your stamina and ability to not only travel this path with courage but, through your blog, to tell the world your story to inspire those who may also be fighting the good fight. Good on ya mate!

  3. Dan, I believe your recent results are more on the positive side than the negative. Keep in mind that you are the one who has to negotiate the discussion regarding anything experimental (official or unofficial). Joan is an experiment and it has kept her going for close to 5 years now. Whenever we suggested to the various members of her medical team that we thought she was an experiment we only got smiles back from them – except for one of her specialists who confirmed to us that she is an experiment and for this we are truly grateful. So think about it. The Stamps preseason begins in less than 5 months. Make the best of your time with the boys at the end of January!

    Joan & Herb

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