This one was definitely worse than last. The neuropathy (The cold sensation in the hands) initially wasn’t as bad as last time, but I also was more aware of it and with this crappy weather I didn’t test it. What I did get was a chest cold. Which only delayed the fog and the elation of being over chemo.

Also had to ride out the constipation train too. I know lovely eh? But I am pretty much sharing everything in here. The anti-nauseant drugs I take, (Emend, Stemetil, Decadron, Zofran) are brutal for that. Side note – this Emend is 3 capsules for a cost of $150. Most is covered but this one is 50%. But 3 pills for $150!! Crazy. Anyway, these all cause the back log so to speak. So I had to call the Oncology clinic to find out what to do. It now becomes chemical compounding. Take this drug, it does this, oops now you have to take more drugs to counter the side effects of these drugs….and so on. Had to take Lactolose which I find out after can cause severe abdominal cramps. Let’s just say between the cold and this, it was a worse round than the first one.

I am currently on day 13 post 2nd round chemo. Feeling pretty good. Still get pain in and around the liver. Some days more noticeable than others. I have to focus that it is pain from the cancer dying and not growing, but it is tough because its a reminder. When I feel good physically, I feel good mentally. That is nothing new for anyone, but not having the pain combined with a good distraction I get to feel normal for periods of time. These are my mini vacations.

I also have a tough time multitasking. I find that if I am doing something I need to be just doing that. Otherwise focus is an issue. I get stressed if there are too many things to deal with so I try not to schedule much or make plans.

This is a ride for sure. What might be front and center today can be on the back burner tomorrow. Different days, different feelings.

Next chemo is Dec 18th @ 8:15am I will start my fasting 48 hours before so nothing but water on the 16th/17th. The good news is that I should be just getting better in time for Christmas. Although I am starting to stress a bit, because technically I only have till the 17th to get all my Christmas shopping done.

Off to take Audrey to see Santa Claus today!